Somehow , We Patched Things Up . Hee ! Thank you God .
Somehow , We Patched Things Up . Hee ! Thank you God .
KhaiLyn ended their relationship on the 17 November 2009 . Hope you're happy with that new someone .
Learn to judge yourself and find out your own weakness before you're clever enough to judge about others . Be ashamed .
look at yourself ! see what happens !
u keep on talking about people ,
now , KARMA IS HITTING YOU BACK !
i hope u realise it .
u dare talk behind my back ,
i dare u talk face2face with me ! im not afraid of you!
im waiting ! u just dun realise how cruel u are talking about people .
yur so immature ! i thought u were a good person.
but excuse me , i didnt know that yur like this .
if yur not happy with me ,
i dare u talk face to face wimme , unless yur a coward !
i hate u , BITCH !
IM REFERRING TO YOU , S !
hello people .
won't be updating since N levels are coming .
My Books are my ' best friends ' for now .
next week y'know . wishh everybody all the best for your incoming exams !
will be updating soon okey ?
miiss me ! mwahhx !
` aidilin fitrii .

Omg . i feel so suckish today , felt like shit . i donnoe why . i guess theres just
too many things up my mind .
yeah , TOO MANY . Fellings of sadness , fear , anxiousness and many more are all
mixed up in me . i just cldnt describe how it feels like .
Only God knows how i felt . i cant bare to loose anything in my life . everythings so precious to me .
OR LGY WORSE ! LOOSING SOMEONE YOU LOVE SO MUCH !
Having to go through these feelings and these moments in life , sucks .
But , i knew i had to be strong for Him .
Baby will be going through a major operation . an operation for his scoliosis disease .
Im so afraid .. afraid of alot things .
so so many things , there are alot of possibles that will happen during his crucial days .
anything can happen whenever a person is in a coma .
memory loss , or even still .... the worst , where the person doesnt wanna know .
IT FEARS ME ALOT !
To add on to my grief , he said ;
baby : i didnt mean to think abt the negative thoughts . but i fear one thing . i fear i won't be
able to wake up again . i wanna look at you the first thing i wake up . like this - :) -
NO ! HE BETTER WAKE UP !! HE BETTER ! I CAN'T LEAVE ALONE ! HE HAS TO BE WITH ME !
HE ALREADY PROMISED ! ;(((((((((((((((((((((((((
Oh God , i didnt realise it will be this hard for me . i dont know if im strong enough to go thru all this .
he was my hope to live on . he taught me alot of things and
i am not ready to let him go ! never ! i need him to still guide me !
even typing all this is too hard for me .
i promise to stay with him during his crucial days . for you , i will .
` God , please help me .
` God , please hear out my prayers .

i guess im wrong . another part of world war 2 begins . i just couldnt understand your motives .
stop giving excuses that will make me angry ! think first luh before u do anything .
its so disappointing .yur promises all shatters right in front of my face like fake glass .
it makes me upset all the time , all the time ! and also of cos ,
the more you break your promise , the more i feel like going away . and give up .
u made me wanna leave twice , don't make me leave for the third time , cos if i do ,
i won't turn back and give anymore chances , i swear ..
break the promises if you dare !
Why ?
I think now is the best time for me to apologise to someone .
someone who has been so patient
and has been tolerating with all my bad tempers and wrong doings all this while .
but yet , he still keeps blaming himself though we both know at times , im at wrong .
i know he doesnt mean it when he hurts me .
its not his intention . cos he made an effort trying to make me happy everytime .
though through the hard times , he smiled for me and tried to make my day special .
Even though he has a bad day ,
he tends to not show it , because he doesnt wanna spoil mine .
Today was our 16th month anniversary . didnt realli celebrated cos its bulan puase . lol . so we just went out on friday to E!HUB to catch a movie , dance flick . quite funny though . but we didnt realli concentrated on the movie cos we were talking all the way thru out the movie . haha . wth . org concentrate ehk , ni bobal . slenger betul . anyhos , that day was hilarious ! okey , firstly we made our way at 1030am , and was late actually cos we were suppose to meet up at 9 gtu . was an hour plus, plus , plus late . heeeh ! maklum luh , aku biase siap lamer2 . hehe . sorrey baby . tp naseb die orgnye bersabar . sempat jugak dier maen game . so , we were late kan , confident kan movie start 1115 , we took the cab , then reached there , check2 movies will only start at 1145 instead of 1115 ! wth , waste money naek cab , tahu naek bus ajer !
then when we decided to buy the tickets , which was the ugly truth , we didnt realise that the movie starts at 1140PM . cos we thought it wld start at 1140AM !! so we got messed up with the timing . da gtu , kte beli je tak check dulu . haha ! slenger kan ? we only realise when we waited till 1145 , thenn we asked the guy at the entrance when we cld get it . then skali he said , " this starts at 1140PM . ni mlm dik , the first movie starts at 1140AM not PM ." hahha ! paisey nyeeeeeeeeerr !! haiyootambi ! da gtu okey taw , naseb the tickets can change , if not wasted sei , malu2! haha . cos the lady said , " please check yur tickets b4 entering " but we didnt . hehehe ! CARELESSS !
then the second incident , after we get the " new tickets " we went to the arcade near the cinema to look at the games to waste time till 1215 . then a few minutes later , dearest wanted me get something for me and wanted me to stay there . well , at that point of time , i didnt realise that the movie tickets were with me . so i accidently dropped the tickets somewhere when i took out my phone . so when we wanted to enter , we both realise that the tickets were lost . hahhs ! what a terrible moment , i felt so horrible when i lost it , and i got pissed on myself . haha then i said to baby ,
me ; da luh , da tkya carik luh ! kte da carik sume tempat da ! ttp takd ! org da amek da ! da takya tgok luh !
( in an angry , sad tone . was also abt to cry )
baby ; takmo mcm tuh syng . we'll find it . i ask the counter whether we can replace it okey ?
me ; da takya luh ! takya ! sudah tuh sudah ! rezki org lain kan ! biarkan je luh !
( even angrier at myself , air mate nak kat jatuh ! )
baby ; degil ehk ! belum try . belum tahu syng . let me ask first .
me ; gy luh ! gy luh ! degil uh !
( was so angry till i got angry at him also bcos his too stubborn with his "tkmo putus asa attitude " )
A FEW SECONDS LATER ....
baby ; syng ? dorng da jumpe ticket kte . da2 tuh . jgn sedih lgy . jom syng (:
me ; ouh , found the tickets alrd ehk ? hehe .
( i felt so paisey and malu !!!!!! )
baby ; tuh luh , what did i say . jgn senang putus asa . ( smiled , pinched my nose )
Haahhaha ! see how careless i was . but he was stubborn and sweet enuf to make my day . haha . hilarious . two incidents that made me so malu !! paisey u know ! haiyoootambi ! lol . thanks to that person who found our tickets . MAY GOOD BLESS YOU ! hehe . And to my other half ,
i would want to take this oppurtunity to thank and also apologise
for everythg . For every single thing that we have gone thru are something we shld learn from
After all the many many obstacles , we still made it thru , strong .
Teach me , guide me and protect me from anythg i shldn't or shld do .
After 16 months of the tolerating , shouting , argueing , crying , smiling , laughing and
all the shits emotional moments that we have been thru , have made us into a stonger and meaningful person .
Managing the ups and downs are the usual routines to us and
we believe that its just a test for us from Allah .
Especially this month , the journey has been a really rough one for us ,
though thru the many heartpain , tears and promises . but we still hold
on to each other . thats was how meaningful our relationship was .
i just hope after ' world war 2 ' ,
the argueing and fighting will end . i just hope . i cant bear with the pain . i cant bear to see you hurt .
and i dont wanna repeat my mistakes that happened 16 months ago .
No matter what , we will always stay strong , thru thick and thin .
Happy 16TH Months Anniversary , Sweetheart .
♥ 120508 ♥
now is already 1235am . i cant sleep . im just too nervous to sit for tmr's N level MT paper .
im jjust like everyone els . scared like hell ! some still not sleeping yet .
like me . im still mugging y'know . i just cant sleep yet . and it suck to feel this way .
Allah , please give me the strength and courage to go through the following days calmly and smoothly .
Amin .
* im off to bed .